What Do They Make Dreams For

"OK now he was close, tried to domesticate you

But you're an animal, baby, it's in your nature
Just let me liberate you
Hey, hey, hey
You don't need no papers
Hey, hey, hey
That man is not your maker"

What can I say.  I'm obsessed with this song.  I can't help it.

Things have been moving along.  Eh.  Hubby has gone to work a few times, mainly doing half days because someone will come up and say something, and it goes downhill from there.  So he's going back full time tomorrow.  I'm FINALLY taking my car in to get the Hurricane Sandy damage fixed.  I know, more than a year later.  I'm a BIT of a procrastinator.  But that's getting done finally.  

I went out the other day to get a few shirts and pants for the time being.  It's so difficult because of how my body is and how much it's changed.  Top wise I only went up a size, mainly because my chest is even bigger now for obvious reasons.  Jeans, I don't even want to talk about.  I'm not into paying full price right now, because I don't know 1. When I'm going to get pregnant again and 2. What size I will end up being after everything is said and done.  So basically what I've found is a bunch of cute tops, awesome, and that since I am now a "bigger" size, apparently now I want my jeans almost as high up as my full banded maternity pants.  Not true.  Not true at all.  So I'm running in to that, but like I said, I don't know how long I'll be in them, so it's whatever.  I'm either going back into maternity pants or down sizes because we're waiting, we will see.

Hubby is getting help through his company, which is awesome.  We will be going to see someone in the beginning of November.  I think it'll help a lot.  I'm having a lot of moments where I'll get ready to go somewhere, and I break down.  That happens mostly with places I frequented while pregnant.  One of my saving graces is the fact that I have an awesome support system, hubby and I are on the same page in regards to trying again, and I have complete faith in my body and mind in regards to another pregnancy and the future.

We've planned to pay off our debt consolidation with our tax refund this year, which takes away a fairly sizable payment monthly.

Also super exciting news, I went to see my midwife today and I'm healing well.  All my labs came back fine, TORCH and everything was clear, and the pathology from the placenta came back fine except for the vein abnormalities, but those had nothing to do with what happened. 

Oh. And a little grocery store down the street had ClearBlue ovulation tests on sale for $3. So I grabbed them all. The little victories.